random thoughts..

since form 5, i've left kch, went to shah alam, met new frens and became close frens with them..and then forced to say goodbye as we went separate ways..

THEN...i went to imu and again the same thing repeated..and NOW..finally its another time when i need to say goodbye to the life that i've slowly getting used to..leaving my frens that've become a very important part of my life..

yup..i know there is always changes in life..and i know this is part of growing up, u cant expect everything to remain the same..

BUT still..i really hope that i can seize this moment and remain as a student..complaining about exams, studying together with my housemates, going to outings with my crazy frens, planning for gathering with my frens..etc etc..all these may be far-fetched in future..

after all these years, i thought i've got used to the gathering and separation since i've been through it a few times..but being me..i just cant stop feeling depressed...haih..

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i just came bek from a great road trip (glasgow-oban-loghilphead-glasgow) with k.hooi, st and kh for the weekend..hopefully i'll write it soon as i dun wanna forget the places that we've visited and the fun time that we shared..feel kinda sad after sending k.hooi off at the bus station jz nw..gonna miss his jokes and all the interesting stories..wahahaa..

next destination: london..til then..take care ppl..:)

thank u:)

i wish i could express hw i feel nw..

this is gonna be a long thank you post to my frens..*wah, macam gt award or sth..haha*

im so glad to hv you all..amidst the stress of exams etc, u guys still spent so much time to celebrate my birthday with me and i definitely enjoyed my birthday to the max becos of you all..:)

*taken outside JBC before going to chukoku..the ones who werent inside are edmond, kahyee and weeyeaw..

after the exams, we went to chukoku to hav our lunch..i think we've been trapped in the house for far too long..so everyone was toking non-stop and laughing hysterically, until everyone din rili eat as full as we wanted to..hehe..had fun chatting and without realising, we were in chukoku until 4 sumthing..omg..

after that st was given the task to "distract" me..and we went shopping bt due to the lack of sleep previous nite, i was kinda tired and wanted to go home (contrary to the usual me) poor st..can feel her stress as she tried her best to pull me into different shops..paiseh arr, wasnt co-operative at all, lol..after that i promised to stay at my room without disturbing them..bt can SMELL the nice CAKE from far..teehehe..happy sekali..spent my time in the room toking thru phone and chatting..macam vip..hiakz.

does this remind u of anyone? (imitating sue choo who did this during her bday:P)

the veli nice cake made by sc and kh..high standard!!:))they spent a long time making the cake!! (bt i din realise the M-Y alphabets on the cake at first..oops..:P)

at nite we had another small gathering, which i enjoyed a lot..thanks to all of u for preparing the food ..the arguing, laughter, blur and crazy moments were totally memorable..u ppl made the nite special for me and i appreciate your companions..gonna rili miss you ppl after this..

this year's birthday was full of surprises for me..

thanks to my lovely housemates who organise the gathering and busy preparing all the stuff..to glen and siew sing for the cute bear..the present was supposed to be given to me today by sc bt blur glen bocorkan about it before that..to y.leng, k.hooi, glen, k.foong and p.sen for the long call today..(thanks for the soft toy k.hooi and ps!!:P) and also to the others who've wished me, msg-ed me, sms-ed me etc..hehe, a very good way to keep in touch with some of my old frens as well..arigato!!

and thanks for the 20 mins video that made me laugh nonstop and made me shed tears at last..cried AGAIN..omg..i was veli touched and couldnt express my appreciation in words..this was totally unexpected and i din see that coming AT ALL..so bravo to u guys who din bocorkan ANYTHING at all before this..

okay..wanna thank each of u who appeared in the video...

kailun @ panda-man..the panda part was rili funny..couldnt guessed it was u at 1st cos i think u lost weight ar..thanks for the suspense and the song..touching lar..:)

my J9 housemates who did some crazy singing and acting..totally brilliant..wahahaha

rumah SS with the sexy birthday monster popping out from the box..lol..nice~~~

ps and kf..with the kawaii style of singing and posing..omg..this video can definitely make me laugh whenever im depressed next time..

alan..haha..din expect that u recorded a video for me as well,veli surprised!!bt hw come in english arr??:P

alex who recorded a loooooong message to me, and play violin summore...:)

glen who recorded a very lame and funny video, nvm larr..being lame IS your personality and uniqueness..

ah guan..who never appear in the video..apalah..

sekfatt,weenien, bensi and ahmeng..ur style of delivering msg in papers with music in the background made us crack in laughter..omg..aiyo..shud video-ed ur faces marr..creative sekali..

pun..haha..with the few "leng chai photos" and msg..woi..u owe me a song arrr..

and most importantly, to the 2 konstanzers- james and mashi..who rili put in their efforts in making this video for me..:)) using the gummi bears to arrange the words of "happy birthday"..im totally amazed by tat..hw did u do that and hw much time hv u spent on tat?!?!! the guitar-singing part, the collecting and editing videos from different places..WOW, its definitely not an easy task..kh told me tat u 2 did this until 4am..thanks a lot, im rili touched and speechless....:))))

[btw..my frens keep saying hw sweet u all are..i truly agree with that..nw saham naik for each of u, lol (bensi told me he regretted of NOT appearing in the video)]

*thanks for everything ppl..(haha..getting loso after being 24..hv been repeating my thanks for a dozen times)

i cherish our frenship and i noe just hw lucky im for having u ppl in my life..:))) hugz*

stupid exams..

wat do i think bout my exams so far??

!@#@#$%%^$...

endless memorising process, and since ALL the mechanisms/side effects/chemical structures/super-long chemical names (e.g ketoenoyl reductase enzyme, mycolyl arabinogalactan, lipoarabinomannan, isoxazolyl, diarylquinolone R207910, moxifloxacin etc etc...) are so freaking similar..in the end everything will stack together and i had to spend time debating with myself during exams recalling from my tired brain..

fighting with time during exams..writing non-stop eventhough i have no ideas what the questions were asking for..(*shyt..nvr heard of adefovir before!!!!GRRRR....) getting headache and felt terrible/disappointed/tired-but-couldnt sleep every time after exams realising hw bad i did each time..seems to be going from bad to worse btw..:(

geram.....T_T

inverness last day

Haha..still remember wat happened bout half a year ago?
til nw still havent finished blogging bout our inverness/london trip during xmas holidays..and its may nw..

was about to blog about depressing exams that i've had so far..BUT..i guess its better to stop spreading the gloom and look forward to the other 3 papers..(my worst nitemare would be the pharmaceutical care paper on fri..omg...*fingers crossed*ppl pls pray for me !!)

okie..so this was the post that i've completed 75% few months ago..better complete it nw before i forget since i gt such poor memory in remembering things..

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on the 30th dec..

we went to aviemore town to the tourist info centre to look for more info about skiing(our initial plan was either to ski or to visit the cairngorm reindeer )


on the way to aviemore..

since the tourist info centre wasnt opened yet..we went to the homely cafe opposite it to have breakfast..:) [p/s:this place had a well-decorated 5-star toilet..there's another chair beside the toilet bowl if i recalled correctly..who would possibly want to sit on that chair?]

anyway..we decided to drive to the cairngorm reindeer centre after that..

There was a daily visit to the reindeer, weather permitting, departing from the Cairngorm Reindeer Centre at 11.00 am. all the others that were interested to the guided tours onto the hill would gather there..the above pic was taken while we were waiting for the guide..look at the mountains covered with snow behind us!!

the view around the cairngorm reindeer centre..

though it looked sunny from the pics..the weather was in fact extremely cold..most of us wore 4/5 layers of clothing..

after a while, we drove further trailing the guide's car along with another 30+ other cars to somewhere near the hill..

and started our journey to the cairngorm mountains..

walking together with the others..and the view was simply too beautiful to be described with words..the mountains..trees..bright blue sky..crystal clear water..i was totally loss of words to express my feelings that time..:)..the beauty of mother nature..

we were finally there after bout half an hours walk!! i think some of the reindeer were free to go around the cairngorm mountains..but some were kept inside the fenced-area..

the cairngorm mountains..

the 1st reindeer that we approached, this was among the reindeers kept in the fenced area..the guide gave us a brief intro about the reindeer..explaining to us that the reindeer was in fact very tame and friendly..

there were so many of them and they were really pretty!!! the guides divided some of the reindeer's food to us..so that we can feed them..

awww...so cute....the reindeer was making frens with the cute kid..

awww...so cute...i think that was wat the reindeer thought..cos obviously..it chose to eat the food from me..and ignore the 2 guys beside me..:)

this reindeer seemed to be the "king" ...it appeared to be the strongest and fittest among the other reindeer..so it was the favourite reindeer among the tourists.. woi..the 3 of u..太现实了吧!!:p

nice rite??

when we were on our way down from the mountain..

after that...AFTER THAT..we went...erm..??!!!i cant remember where we went after that..pls enlighten me..sh*t..my memory is rili failing me nwadays..:((

yah..this was taken that evening..a relax stroll along the lake..actually we oso took very "meteor-garden" like pics..haha..

the place was kinda untouched and isolated..:))

THIS is why i LOVE scotland trip so much...

the view is oways TAT spectacular..:)

we witnessed sunset..

we had dinner at "the kitchen" that nite (YAY!!i still remember the name of this place) guess most of us rili enjoyed the few relaxing days in inverness..before moving to the more hectic london for countdown of 2008...

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omg..rili reflects hw fast time flies..okiee..feel better nw..back to studies again..

GOOD LUCK everyone..3 more papers to go..:))

(OMG..i can be so random..studying is rili driving me nuts)

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Reading journals and lots of notes...

reading and forgetting....read and forget....

r.e.a.d and f.o.r.g.e.t....and the cycle continues..
is this all going to end soon....or is it just the beginning?

14 more days & 4 more papers to go..

wil we be relieved to gain back our freedom..or will we feel unsure towards the uncertainties in the future..?